CDC 6 Day 29

5p - 7p

05:00 - 06:00: Obj.2.1c (33/35.5)
06:00 - 07:00: Obj.2.1c(34/35.5)

PRODUCT VIDEOS: USE POWERPOINT.

Now that I know how to easily animate in powerpoint, and how to record according to timestamp...

WHY THE FUCK

Would I cut and paste 100 photo slides

When I can just render 1 powerpoint.  I can literally click through the animations AS I LISTEN to the recording to make the vast majority of the editing ON POWERPOINT, IN REAL TIME.

MUCH, MUCH FASTER, and it will even look more legit.

Yup, I just learned how to do animations and make videos in powerpoint.  Pretty awesome fucking night.  And you were gonna do it in FLASH, lol!

Q4 CDC Day 42

5:00p - 7:15p

5-515 - meditation
515-530 - setup

05:30 - 06:00: Obj.Int.Setup (10.5/6)
06:00 - 07:00: Obj.2.1a (18.5/5)

SETUP EXTENDED -- To forever settle what "IT" is that you must "GET"

From now on, thou shalt live by the following realization.

If thou deviates, thou shalt review the following:

Q2 CDC Day 62

12p - 1p

SUNDAY / MONDAY FLIP (see day 63 post.)

12:30 - 01:30: Obj.1.2c3 (23/12)

Don't Drink "To get through it" - Increase Size to Reduce Effort

Seeing pain as a good thing means you can burst intensity when you need it, and that's how effort is reduced - via the principals of the Effort Illusion.  Alcohol use trains you to create more effort for yourself in the long term, whereas bursting would reduce effort.

The challenges - whether power thinking or consistent discipline - are about progressing your mental workout.

It is fundamentally critical to always see 1-up pain as a good pain the same way lifting weights causes pain that's a good pain.

When you drink "to get through it", you are reducing this pain and therefore reducing your workout.

That's not good, but 1 day of not really progressing is not necessarily that bad either.  What's really bad is what it's saying: drinking "to get through it" says "THIS PAIN IS A BAD PAIN, BUT I CAN REDUCE IT BY DRINKING TO MAKE IT EASIER."

This is the same thing as saying: "It's better to work out with the 20 lb dumbbells because it hurts less."

Drinking 1 time to get through it when it really really really hurts is okay because it's like I'm asking you to lift a 50 lb dumbbell and there's just no way you're gonna do it without some help.  That's fine.

But ANY HABIT or regular go-to here is toxic.  It's cancerous to your continued growth, and it will sink your challenge, your chances of achieving your goals, and your dreams.

To beat the REAL CONSEQUENCES, you must grow quickly.  This means tearing your mind up again and again, day after day.  Pushing until the pain is extreme and then pushing even more until you're on the brink of passing out.  That's how you build up your mind.

The truth is, as of this moment, I've never even gotten close to 100 hours of ROARS in a LEAF work quarter, and every time I've tried it's ended in total collapse.

100 is the bare minimum needed to continue my current life path and purpose into my 30's.  And the only way to get there is through pushing myself and my mind harder, further, and enjoying it.  This work-out paradigm is essential to that!  You cannot succeed if you are giving yourself breaks that essentially say that pain is a bad thing.  The pain must always be good.

The New Daily Power Hour

Morning Ritual will now be more important, as the power hour is being incorporated into it to make use of the drive to work as the meditation time.

This will cause me to start work immediately upon arrival, so I fit "normal person" protocol and this prevents me from spending extra time that I dont have:

1. There will be a greater sense of urgency to complete the morning ritual and power hour in timely fashion, as every minute after the 6am leave time will cost me more time in traffic and hurt the meditation.
2. I won't be able to relax when I get to work and end up taking much longer to complete the power hour just because "that's how long it took me to get going".
3. I will naturally encounter a more flowing meditation as I will need to focus on driving as I meditate, so there's less of the "crazy manufacturing and grip upon it" issue that I've become concerned it limiting me.
4. Since Schwitters took the closet, any alternative strategy would be weird and harder, so this allows me to gain instead of lose, which are my two current choices.

So moving forward, my morning looks like this:

4:30 - 5:30 or 5:45: Morning Ritual

5:30 - 5:45 or 5:45 - 6:00): Power hour

5:45 or 6:00: 5 min breathing med + Leave for work (and everything med while you drive.)

This can allow me to be more disciplined as well.  For instance, I can say 6:00 is the cut off, and in worst case, 6:10 is a HARD CUT-OFF of any power hour activities - so if I slack in the morning, that means no power hour.    MUST be meditating by 6:10, no exceptions.

In this way, discipline leads directly to motivation.  The frame becomes more and more important.