Who Am I? Core Nature of "me" "my life" "I" etc

When you talk about your life, your talking about a sum of experiences, actions, choices, etc.  It all boils down to a collection of moments.  Your "whole life" is all of the moments you've been through.  Who you are now-a-days would be the more recent moments, as defined by some custom set of parameters.

These are all useful constructs.  Sure they're real, and true, but they only say who you are as a construct of a sum of smaller things.  You'll think of yourself one way, others will have it slightly different, probably with a lot of overlap.  The construct of "you" is essential and amazing and awesome.

However, it's not who you really are.  It's a construct.  And the problem is, you live moment-to-moment as if who you are is this construct.  That's where things get messy, because this construct is a sum of many, many moments, and it doesn't fit as a useful tool when it comes to managing your moment-to-moment life.

All that ever exists is the moment.  You are right here, right now.  No matter what you do, where you go, etc, you will always be right wherever you are, right in that moment.  The past is gone, and all you ever do is remember it in this moment, and the future isn't here yet, so all you ever do is predict it in this moment.

If all that exists is the moment, you cannot ever exist as a sum of moments.  You can only ACTUALLY exist as THIS moment.

So who are you?

You are the space in which this moment is happening.

You are like the raindrop reflecting the world.  You are the observer, the witness.  You see, touch, feel, think, experience it all, and that ever-changing experience is WHO YOU ARE.

Naming a cause always results in avoiding responsibility

This concept from "Be Here Now" is the core nature of my 2010-2011 discovery that I could witness a "troll thought" and choose a "productive thought", compare the two in terms of which is more helpful, and the resulting comparison is typically quite humorous.

The core nature of it is that you are the source of all value, and the context is decisive of the value.  The second you name an external cause to any value, you've now avoided responsibility of being at the source of it.  All values, good or bad, are simply whatever you say they are or view them as, and responsibility in this manner isn't "the truth", it's simply a context you can move to whenever an upset occurs.

Core Nature of Thoughts Meditation

The key objective is to relate to your thoughts as thoughts (and feelings as feelings, and sensations as sensations, but emphasis of this meditation is obviously the thoughts.)

So not like distinguishing which thoughts are concepts, which are "manufactured", which "take lead / drive the bus", and not whether I should let that happen / fight it / control which thoughts, etc.

CORE NATURE is just relating to thoughts as thoughts because everything else is made up of thoughts and feelings.

Concepts are made up of thoughts and feelings, they aren't the root of the issue.

"Manufactured thoughts", while maybe true or a worthy debate, are a concept, so they are an even more surface level thing - an idea, made up of concepts, which then boils back down to thoughts.

Thoughts that seem to "take control" of my awareness are still thoughts that can be observed - it doesn't necessarily matter if they're driving the bus, it just matters to observe them during the meditation.  They're still just thoughts.  And any "struggle" is just a set of thoughts and feelings related to a these thoughts.  So you can simply observe those, too.

There are no concepts, ideas, or anything that doesn't break down into simply thoughts and feelings.  And since there are only thoughts, the point of the meditation is to get connected with that.  To relate to your thoughts as thoughts.  Because that's what's so.

All the concepts and ideas that the thoughts generate cloud you to the true reality of how you actually are operating in any given moment.  With meditation, you can cut back to the source of it all, and once your observing reality you gain a greater ability to choose which thoughts you follow, and from there you can choose your actions.

Choose Your Resistance and EMPOWER Your Meditation

By CHOOSING your resistance (or your "DO NOT WANT"), you go from having it guide you to being at the source of it.

You start by accepting and embracing your very diswanting itself.  Your resistance, your magnetic repulsion, your avoidance.  Get in touch with how much you don't want to meditate.  And choose that.

The repulsion is the way the repulsion is because the repulsion is the way the repulsion is.

AND

I choose the repulsion because I choose the repulsion.

Human beings never accept things for what they are.  We're constantly "deciding" - meaning, the considerations are what's ACTUALLY choosing - and thereby cutting off all other ways of being.

By accepting my repulsion, I can enjoy it and eliminate it as an issue, which then frees me up to meditate without a barrier being in my way.  It therefore empowers my meditation, simply by dis-empowering the racketing.

Meditated tonight with some of my last mintues before bedtime and feel quite good about it.

CDC 6 Day 14

9a - 4:15p

09:00 - 10:00: Obj.2.1c (11/20)
10:00 - 11:00: Obj.2.1c (12/20)
11:00 - 11:30: Break - 5MM
11:30 - 12:30: Obj.2.1c (13/20)
12:30 - 01:30: Obj.2.1c (14/20)
01:30 - 02:30: Obj.Su.Lunch (3/10) - 10MM
02:30 - 03:00: Shopping
03:00 - 04:15: Obj.2.1c (15.25/20)
04:15 - 05:30: Chores
05:30 - 05:45: Meditation
05:45 - 06:30: Erica Training Assembly & Read Mindfulness Book
...rust?
08:00 - 09:00: LARP

Video Editing: Up Next

• WHENEVER THERE IS SILENCE: Record the 1 missing sentence, edit it in.
• Edit all pictures into 1080p slide-ready pix
• Edit first 10 picture slides to FIND OUT IF THEY REQUIRE EXTRA SECONDS DUE TO THE EFFECTS ANIMOTO USES ON THEM!!
• Finish slides.
• Full listen through & edit where needed.
• Add music?

The 5 Second Mindfulness Game

Cultivating "The Moment" once again...

The fun thing about mindfulness that I got last time I was really into it was this ability to know whether I'd been lost in thought or generally aware of my thoughts, and for how long.

It'd be like "op!  I was just gone for 2 minutes on that thought." *then become aware of everything my mind was doing for 30 seconds* ; then be in and out for a couple mins ; then "op!  I was just gone for 10 minutes there"

That was the game, that was how I knew I was heavy into mindfulness.  That could run for several hours and once or twice it ran through pretty much the entire work day.

A new possibility here is that every time I have a "catch" - basically, any time I experience one of those uncommon moments of awareness - maybe count to 5 to experience 5 full seconds of awareness, and then catch the next thought thereafter to keep it going - then play the game of "how long can I keep it going?"  Soon thereafter, you'll get lost in thought again, and once your next moment occurs, mentally note how long you were awake last time, and then count to 5 again and continue the cycle.  

Part of this possibility is that it is forever and unjudging - Just have it be a game you always play, where there's no judging right or wrong, no goal of trying to achieve some kind of thing where you make yourself wrong when you dont do it, etc... it's just "The 5 Second Mindfulness Game"

CDC 6 Day 2

5p - 7p

06:00 - 07:00: Obj.2.1c (3.5/10)

Why 30m Meditation Per Day?

Switching to a "30 min per day" commitment is much more flexible and fitting, allowing me to give it my true commitment.

But why give true commitment - an unreasonable, unforgiving level of dedication - to a seemingly silly exercise?

Meditation & Landmark go hand-in-hand.  Mindfulness, enlightened by the insights of Landmark, allow you to live in the real world and escape your own stories and meaning making mechanisms.  

Now the 2018 goal of 3min-per-hour-average of mindfulness has a purpose - it means I am constantly coming off it and generating the "nothingness" from which I can engage in whatever possibilities I want.

If the power of landmark is nothing, mindfulness is the tool that allows you to generate that power.  It puts the power of landmark in your hands over and over again every day.  From there, you can actually achieve things like your "deal-work goals", once the possibility / "how" is figured out.

It's also worth noting that in the past, I was so inconsistent with mindfulness it literally was a waste of time.  Looking at the 10 weeks of Q1, counting for NAs, I actually averaged 15.5% frame integrity on my meditations.  15%!!!  At that rate, mental mastery is a hopeless pipe dream of despair.

Now that I'm truely committed - and expect to see #'s in the 90's - I can resume the path of mental mastery.  When you work out daily, you BUILD muscle - when you meditate daily, you BUILD your mind.  

Why 30m meditation per day?  Because the most important thing I can build is my mind, and mediation is a sure fire way of doing it.

CDC 5 Day 29

8a - 3:30p

09:00 - 10:00: Obj.2.1c (8/26)
10:00 - 11:00: Obj.2.1c (9/26)
11:00 - 12:00: Obj.Su.Lunch (2/4) -10mm
12:00 - 01:00: Obj.2.1c (10/26)
01:00 - 02:00: Obj.2.1c (11/26)
02:00 - 02:30: Break -5mm
02:30 - 03:30: WTDC

Next Steps

Today we finished editing the audio and made 2 strategic edits to the script to make the video faster paced and more hooking, especially by using a cliffhanger lead in to section 2.

Next up: Finish the VLP2 Slides Google Doc - this outlines the slides and should make use of all the pictures I had from previous videos that are being replaced by VLP2.

After that, just use copy and past from the doc into Animoto.  Would batch all the text slides together and complete those FIRST, INCLUDING editing them into the video.

Then, it should be easier to fill in the gaps with the photo slides since I'll know the exact lengths I need to fill with each.

Morning Insight - The Relationship Between NLP & Mindfulness

You will not achieve your "level up mindfulness" goal without aNLP.

Why?

You have to ENJOY THE SHIT OUT OF MINDFULNESS to achieve your goals.

I mean, it's gotta be one of your FAVORITE things.

Reprogramming allows you to ENJOY mindfulness.

Moving forward, your goal should be focused on making mindfulness so enjoyable that you actually end up doing it all the time just for fun.

And the only way to achieve this goal is with some serious aNLP.  Every negative with mindfulness needs to be reprogrammed 100x over, and every positive needs to be stretched and maximized.

You get the significance of mindfulness - it allows you to enjoy anything and push your limits - but you don't ACTUALLY enjoy doing it enough to get there.  So there's the logical next step.

I would rather spend the entire mediation reprogramming and talking to myself (and being lost in doing so) then spend it beating myself up.  Because even if the meditation didn't go so well, at least I enjoyed it, which will add to the snowball effect of enjoying mindfulness so much that I'm actually doing it all the time.

OBJECTIVE: MAKE MINDFULNESS SO FUN, I FIND THAT I'M NATURALLY DOING IT ALL THE TIME WITHOUT HAVING CONSCIOUSLY CHOSEN TO DO IT.

Q4 CDC Day 42

5:00p - 7:15p

5-515 - meditation
515-530 - setup

05:30 - 06:00: Obj.Int.Setup (10.5/6)
06:00 - 07:00: Obj.2.1a (18.5/5)

SETUP EXTENDED -- To forever settle what "IT" is that you must "GET"

From now on, thou shalt live by the following realization.

If thou deviates, thou shalt review the following:

How to Enjoy Pain

New technique: Child-like amusement - enjoy your petty emotions JUST TO enjoy them.

NLP - This is the lateral / sideways directional move.  "It's not this, it's THAT."

To become an adult, you have to learn that it's not good to be angry at silly things, and we become more mature by not reacting to our emotions.  

The problem is that the strategy is largely via suppression, meaning that we're mostly just hiding our anger from others, or judging ourselves for it and pushing it down or away.

The key to enjoying the anger and embracing it is much like the way a child would.  Imagine a child who's mad at something silly and then after he's forgotten about why he's mad, he just remains mad because he enjoys being mad.  Kind of like Louis CK's example of Jizanthapus - pure anger just for the sake of it.

So when pittiful, pathetic, embracing base emotions pop up at tiny things, the key isn't to act like an adult, it's to act like a controlled child.  You enjoy these ridiculous feelings SELFISHLY, when they come up instead of being like "why the HELL would that emotion have such power here when it's so childish" you want to be like "Yeah, FUCK that guy for slightly bumping my shoulder".

In this way, when a silly completely uncalled for emotion comes up, you relish it like a child would, enjoying it just to enjoy it like an immature curiousity you can't stop yourself from exploring.

Keep in mind, this is just one technique.  There's still other 2 good ones:

-NLP: Up/Future direction: Thinking of a time you enjoyed pain and what that was like, and how things play out differently enjoying vs. hating (crazy bad is crazy good.)

-NLP: Analogical direction: Comparing feeling pain to working out pain of pushing and stretching - it's a good pain, not a bad pain.

Next Steps for Mental Mastery & aNLP

Finer & Finer Distinctions Are Needed

Find Jack Canfield's CD.

As you know, the mind is very complex, and so is mindfulness.

The more complicated something is, the more you need finer and finer distinctions.

More techniques, skills, values etc are required to excell.

Trash and folders is a technique and skill.  Absorbing is a technique and skill  Knowing when to use each is an understanding.  

Mastery of Mindfulness Means Conquering FLOWING Thoughts

My mindfulness sessions and hands on to the point where most of what i am observing is also very much my own construction.  Its very inception-y in the sense that i am creating and observing simultaneously.

The issue is, since its created by the meditation, once i leave its hard to keep it going as i have not been observing a natural flow of thoughts.

My goal is mastery with the natural flow.  So there needs to be a dramatic change in my frame on this.

Frame Change: How well you hold on is NOT the key.

THE KEY IS IN THE SNAP BACK.  "Catch & Take Control"

The most important aspect of mindfulness is snapping back often and being able to really gain wide control and awareness when you do.  But this can be 10 seconds or 10 minutes, that is less important because it WILL VARY based on the circumstances.

For instance, if you need to be very creative, you almost are REQUIRED to get lost in thought to some degree.  If you want to hold on, then you've at the very least got to look at a whole new way of doing that.

Frame Change: Value "Good Catch, IF" 10 to 1 Over Your "Grip"

This all means that there will be a lot of catch and release.  It means i can be scared to get lost for 5 minutes, and i cant be upset with myself for that.  It means i have to be more highly valuing the catch and snap back and continually looking forward, without car for how or why i got lost, how long, etc.  

Just gotta focus on getting more and more catches and more powerful focus upon snap back.

Moving forward, the only way I see to progress is to compare mindfulness to sight, due to the limiting qualities of trying to be 100% in the moment.

Its slowing and difficult to think when you are staring down every thought as it enters your mind the same way its almost impossible to win a fight while staring at a single point.

You have to bob and weave and use your vision as much as necessary to know whats going on, where the next punch is coming from, where the opening is to hit the guy... but you need to look around and cover up and allow your head to move to win the fight.  100% staring would not be competitive.

This is where the 20% attention to thoughts come into play.  Its been a debate due to the misnomer that mental mastery = >50%.

If mental mastery is about >50%, then were talking about an entirely different continuum.

Continuums:
-% of focus on the object.
-% of time with some degress of focus on object (aka % of the time you are thinking and KNOWING that you are thinking as Sam Harris puts it.)

Mental Mastery would then be about:
-the right amount of focus for each object.
-aware of the majority of objects.

This is just the first advanced distinction.  More than likely, additional distinctions will be needed for mental mastery.

So its important to understand the principal of comparing mindfulness to sight.  Thats how this distinction was derived and it may be very helpful in determining other distinctions moving forward.

Another distinction: "Snapping back" = bobbing and weaving.

The better you bob and weave, the better youe chances of winning right?

Similarly, when you have a powerful line of thought, you dont want to slow it down by trying to stare at it.

This concept right here is being produced with very little staring at the thought process.

So snapping back is not just a rule of thumb - its actually how to progress and how to achieve mental mastery to some degree.

The more you can see the thoughts, choose one, let it take the focus, and then snap back to awareness as soon as its helpful again, the better.

So its about see thought, let thought guide me with minimal awareness, then snap back once the next thought comes on and decide whether that one should guide me or be absorbed with a stare down.

Thats where it gets tricky.  But the principal is to catch as much as possible and want to drop % awareness sometimes and increase at other times.

Embracing & Absorbing vs. "Trash Can & Folders"

Absorbing everything is not smart.

That's only half the equation.

Most thoughts are random nonsense and can be disregarded as such immediately.

The ones that are persistent need to be absorbed.

Acid test may be "do i need to learn to work with this?  Will it be back if i try tossing?  Is it persistent?  Sticky?"

Start observing stickiness and make use of the "trash can and folders" again.  Both are tossing the thought aside.

Folder trashcan is a solid mindfulness tool.  It was more or less forgotten and replaced.  Now a days, i absorb.  These are TOTALLY DIFFERENT tools by their nature, so they play into mindfulness very differently, and they are both important.

It goes something like this:

Simple, half awareness noticing thoughts as they flow by, and not interfering = majority of the time.

Tossing thoughts into trash or into folders = majority of the minority.

Absorbing thoughts with mindfulness = minority of the minority.

It's time we reviewed the principals of mindfullness - I think you'd understand them better now and they'd guide you forward at this point.  Find Jack Canfield's CD.

Why Reprogramming Should Be At The Forefront - Intel NEEDED

Its not at the forefront like it should be.

It should be coming up as a solution every time i get stuck.

I dont even recognize when im getting stuck.

I write emails and delete the drafts and then write another email without really stepping in and modifying the programming.  I could instead change my mindset to be far for powerful.  If I asked what would cobey do? You can see how that could transform my behavior.

Transformation.  You need to become a mental transformer.  But youre laxking some intelligence here.  Take some time to think about HOW to so this in the practical sense.  Its not as simple as saying i gotta do it or putting in a reminder.

Want X Troll

This troll has started to become very dominant.

Reprogram: Want X says "I'm not into [OBJ]" without ever saying it.

It is "I'd rather do X" and this means that you end up LOWERING THE VALUE of the thing that you really want.

Do what you REALLY want, not what you want right now.  Break down the troll into it's parts.

Ex: I want soda -> I crave sugar and sweet vs. I crave pushing deeper into the task at hand.

Sugar & Sweet - enjoyable for a moment but distracting, will have to wash hands, spin my wheels for 5 minutes and end up too small to face challenges, will end up not really enjoying anything.

Pushing deeper into task - painful for a moment but quickly will become more enjoyable, ramp me up, make me feel exhilarated and enjoying everything.

On Sundays, the same often goes for Rust.  You could get on and it'll be fun for a second but kind of painful too and you wont be able to really enjoy anything.  You'll get moody, depressed, irrational, crazy, unskilled and when you die, angry, frustrated, and confused.

Getting into your work will not be fun for a second, but kind of satisfying too, and you'll start enjoying it along with everything else in your day.  You'll get solid and clarity, exhilerated, satisfied, rational and confident, skilled and when you progress, fulfilled, proud, comfortable, and clear.

From October 9, 2016:

"Want now" vs. "What I really want"

You can keep letting your mind ("IT") drive you around and lie to you.  You can let those imaginary squeezes and stretches in your chest make you feel like you need to do other things.  You can give in to these feelings and react to them

You will, of course, end up unhappy, defeated, not enjoying whatever it is they tell you to do, conflicted for the rest of the day, struggling, falling behind, hating life, feeling like you're getting no where... etc.

OR...

You can simply realize that the feelings are all made up.  Theres nothing going on stronger than the equivalent of you making a fist.  None of it's real and it'll be gone within seconds, at most a few minutes, of your thinking about it.

You can then push forth, embrace the pain and discipline, and grow fast back into a person who can work through great difficulties to achieve great things.

Because it's when you're tested that you have the REAL opportunities to achieve happiness.

When it's easy, you're not actually growing.  The tough spots are the real opportunities.

And of course, you will create happiness, deep pride and satisfaction with yourself, victorious, enjoying your work a lot more, getting ahead, and loving life.

YOU CAN DO IT EITHER WAY AND SINCE ALL YOU'RE REALLY DOING IS SITTING IN A CHAIR AND THINKING IT'S REALLY NOT ANY HARDER ONE WAY OR THE OTHER.

Are you going to choose the good way or the bad way?  Do you like creating good feelings or bad feelings?

Get serious, get focused, and make it happen.  You cannot let IT eat you alive.  You must fight, and NOW is the time to do so.

Q1 CDC Day 31

5p - 6:30p

This ski season stuff is killin' me.

So hard to gain traction when Sunday's keep getting knocked out.  The snow is waay too good.

Things to do:

05;15 - 06:15: Obj.RotE1 (1/2)

Breakdown:
5 min setup (atm)
7 min size sheet
3 min meditation post
45 min Real Consequences

Meditation: How to properly do a sentient being meditation

Observe "IT".  In landmark's definition.  Sentient being means see your mind as "IT", being separate from you ("you" being the viewer, in this context.)  And for the duration, watch everything IT does.

"IT'S" ALWAYS doing something.  There is no moment where the vaccuum is a clear state.  SOMETHING always fills it.  You are to observe what IT is doing, what's filling it at all times.

Size Sheet: Frame Integrity Change

So one of the pillars of the CDC's Frame Integrity is tracking your size sheet hour by hour ("Used size sheet hourly?").

But so far, as long as you're only off by a couple of hours or so you feel fine marking "yes" as long as you went back and estimated your size.

This completely defeats the purpose of the integrity tracker.  The point of this tool is to keep you on track, to pull you back to the path every time you get lost.

So from now on, I can ONLY say "yes" to this if I truly tracked hour by hour.  And this means, every hour I MUST meet at least one of the below criteria, or I fail for the day.

-At least 1 mark in Re, 1-up, or 1-up 1-up

-At least 1 measure on size on a 15 min marker

-The hour legitimately qualifies for "NA" (no more than 2 allowed per day, or same story.)  

3+ NA's or A full "NA" day still means "no" to size tracking, regardless of the legitimacy, even if the challenge sheet lists the day's size as "NA".  It doesn't matter if it's due to a late lunch or no lunch or meetings.  

This is due to the fact that the frame integrity is a different mechanism than the other trackers.  It follows a higher standard of rules and is about the strength of the frame... it's not about the context (mental master, aNLP, etc.) or the content (dials, progression, deals worked, etc.)  It's not really asking how well you did today... you can get 100% with a size 3.5 day and not even a full hour of CDH to pass CDH integrity.  Likewise, you can kill it and really progress amazingly in a day and still get a 0% frame integrity analysis.  

The CDC is largely focused on building the frame, and the discipline to build this is going to take sacrifice.

Get it on the ptc main page

Consistency = frame

Mindfulness = context

1up intensity = content


Must have all 3, content is most urgent in the moment as its where the rubber hits the road, but it only works in the right context, and if the frame starts getting bent so will everything inside it

Ex.  1upping a frustration and focusing more intensely on failure instead of embracing it will cause a burnout, bad calls, and slower dialing and more mistakes.

Ex. Missing a ritual leads to unorganized power hour, weaker mindfulness, and less 1upping.

Ex. Not 1upping leads to calling slower even if youre mindful.  Like being mindful of things that are helpful in the long term like embracing emotions but not in the now (hitting call stat goals)

Frustration / Pain / Gut-Clenching / Reaction Trolls

Reprogram:
It's not that X is intensely painful/hard/frustrating/gut-clencing/etc.  The reaction is what actually creates that.  Observe your reaction or get lost to complaining.

Is it better to focus on observing,  absorbing, gaining control, and the humor of the difference... or is it better to complain about how much it hurts / frustrates you / stresses you out?

Do you like creating escalating amounts of pain for yourself?...
Or do you prefer laughing and feeling deeply empowered?

Just wondering.  It's okay if you're into making yourself unhappy too, that's one way to live your life I guess.

Fatigue as the day wear on -- TROLL

Re-program:
It's not that I can't or that it's too hard -- it's just easier and default to think it is.  If it was really that hard after 5-8 hours, how was I able to achieve size 5 on zero hours of sleep?

It's not that this isn't true.  Of course it's true, we all gotta sleep eventually.

It's that it lies about what you are capable of.  It makes me think I don't have the same ability to hit a 5 late in the day as I do in the beginning of the day, when in truth, given decent sleep and good health, I have nearly the same ability at both times, sometimes even better late in the day.

30 hours in is a different story... however, even then I've proven I'm capable of performing quite well and pulling off 4.5 - 5 without too much trouble.  If my life depended on it, I could pull a 5.5 after being awake for 30 hours.

So there's always more to pull from deep down.  Think the marine under fire analogy.  And the idea that I can't after 5-6 hours of work, or even 8-10, is just not true -- the reality is, my limiting belief is preventing me from thinking smarter, going after the 99%, bursting through my walls, and riding that wave.

Q3 PTC Day 31

6p - 7:15p

Today was a self-help / conceptual day.  Needed an hour to figure out why I was unhappy... and I figured out what was going so terribly wrong with my size and motivation at LEAF... somehow, I lost my grasp on the concept of reprogramming which I am RELIANT on for getting to size 5.

This is why it's important to actually review the large packet once a week.  Maybe time to make a fresh copy to bring home for Sunday reviews.  But maybe not... these are tricky concepts, and *actually reprogramming* trolls is very new to me, it was lost years ago and just recently discovered in the last 2-3 months... so not weird that I'd lose it.

And "Mental Mastery" is BRAND new, so if you don't think you're losing it, think again... you probably are.

Why Am I Here?

Happiness.  Derived from my sentient being maintaining majority and default control over my human being.

Because happiness comes from engagement in the things that create it.  Like killing it, loving what you do, winning, mastering the art, creating, etc.

It's no different from the joy you get when you "dial in" on a video game or when you "dial in" to rapid multitasking and jamming through a ton of super high quality calls and feel like you can handle anything badass style.

These are the kinds of feelings that make happiness.  Engagement, "enjoy".  And those come CONSISTENTLY when I follow my code of discipline, my predetermined choices.

What is Failing, why is the "wheel" stopping?

Once again, trolls have gone "off the radar" and even when caught, ARE NOT BEING REPROGRAMMED!!

You have to be very passionate about reprogramming.  You have to really, REALLY want it.  That's what drives you to push your limits until it's painful -- so you can create the pain that makes the trolls that  you can then re-program.

But if you're not even willing to re-program the basics, like nicotine, fear of calling, etc... or even call them trolls... then the wheel will stop, your size will shrink, and you will be unhappy.

You need to be writing down trolls, blog posting about them, expressing excitment and engagement in the reprograms / opportunities that replace them, and pursuing the deep neural pathway building of those new programmings.  Seriously.  If you're not 100% COMMITTED to writing them down and studying them, DO NOT ANSWER "YES" when asked in the morning, "can you actually reprogram the vast majority of trolls?", because that's what it takes to do it.

Mindfulness isn't particularly weak right now.  It's just being fueled by weakness.  Being mindful and a victim at the same time isn't going to get you anywhere.  You need to program much harder.  That's why you're stalling.

Remember the time you discovered reprogramming trolls?

Back in '09 or 2010 or whenever... when you FIRST saw the power of catching a troll and figuring out how to think of the SAME EXACT THING in a different way... and you put it to the test... that's when you first became positive 90% of the time, all your thoughts started being positive naturally, and you hit "size 6" for the first time while making video slides for Mastery.

It all happened very fast.  I realized every time I thought that my thought was either helping me or hurting me, and any thought that could be "non-helpful" was quickly turned on it's head and replaced with a "helpful" spin on the same theme.  And doing this every time wasn't just EASY, it was incredibly REWARDING.

Eventually, I lost it.  The effort illusion always creeps back in.  At the time, I took "vacations" that were the death of me.  I don't know what happened, but I do know this.

THIS IS THE RENAISSANCE.

And this is an idea that will be reborn permanently.  It's not going away like art and science of the roman ages to the dark ages.  It's going to boom into a whole new world, like the renaissance of the 1600s and 1700s.  This is the core fundamental root of how NLP is one of the big 3.  Active NLP.  NLP that says, get serious, get to pain, love the pain, find the troll, and reprogram the thought.

Active NLP.

Q3 PTC Day 19

Stop blaming and justifying.

I keep wanting to say this week has gone bad because

• miles was @ LEAF 3 days
• im being judged on my performance and they can suck my dick
• month end

...on and on it goes.

IF YOU CAN ACHIEVE YOUR LARGEST SIZE WITH ZERO HOURS OF SLEEP, THEN YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU SET YOUR MIND TO.

THIS WEEK HAS GONE OFF THE RAILS BECAUSE YOU LET THAT HAPPEN.

You could have done whatever it took to take control of your mind, but instead you let it justify the pain away.

You let it shreak away from discomfort, pain.  You harbored the comfort zone.  You let yourself fall asleep at the wheel.

It's OKAY to fail!  I am confident in your abilities and the acceleration of your progress in 2016.  However the wheel will stop rolling and you'll lose it all if you let yourself believe that there's any good reasons at all that can justify your failures.  

If you can do your best with no sleep -- literally, the most insane pain, weakness, loss of ability to focus, etc -- then you can do anything!!!  THINK ABOUT IT.

WHAT THAT MEANS IS, YOUR MENTALITY OF "omg these thoughts are non-stop, there's no WAY I can control them!!" IS TOTALLY, COMPLETELY, 100% WRONG.  

The only reasons you can't take control are in front of you if you'd care to get smart about them: 

• You can't take control because you believe you can't.  
• You can't take control because you're looking at it as an overwhelming task -- stop reacting, see passed the 1%, and think proactive instead of reactive, like "a 6 would start with what he CAN do and 1-up from there"
• You can't take control because you're in panic mode; your head is spinning.  COME OFF IT. Then, from a fresh slate, ask: "how would one take TOTAL control from the point where I am currently at?"
• You can't take control because instead of embracing that thought, laughing at it, and WANTING THE CHALLENGE, it was easier just to say "I can't do it" and accept that you failed.

You're not lost in some web.  You're not "in too deep".  You're not incapable.  If anything, you've PROVEN the opposite.

You know what to do.  Right now, failures are stacked, hard.  That cannot be allowed to continue.  One troll at a time, take them all down.  Take baby steps and untangle that web of lies misleading you down all the wrong paths.  There is only one way to win.  Start putting all these sabotaging thoughts into the garbage bin, and for god's sake, take out the fucking trash.  And have fun doing it... that's the key.