On Integrity

You are a human being, and as such, you have no integrity.

You create integrity out there, in the real world, by putting a declaration out there with your word, which creates a new entity (you could substitute "possibility" in for "entity".  I am using "entity" because I am looking at creating a whole realm of possibility around my work, so that may be more than a single possibility, and it can really mean anything you can create with word.)  

Then, THAT ENTITY you've created with your word will have integrity with your word.  

You can relate to knowing yourself as your word or stand in THAT ENTITY.  And of course, standing there, you can tell if it's in integrity or not and make choices about how to proceed.

However, you are not that entity - you are a human being - and as such, you have no integrity.  The same way a cat or dog has no "integrity" - it's just a cat or a dog - you are just a human being they call Jaimie.  Jaimie doesn't have integrity, Jaimie is simply what's so, he's just the way Jaimie is.    

Similarly, Jaimie's "life" is Jaimie's "life", and that is mostly an undeclared mess of internal states - it's not the same as an entity that is created by word.  Entities that are created by word can then have integrity to that word, because they are created by it and they are either in line with the word or they aren't.

If I declare a corporation as named "Jaimie's Crab Shack LLC", then the business "Iconic Crab Shack, Inc." is not that entity.  Nor is the DBA registered to Jaimie named "Jaimie's Crab Shack".  Jaimie's Crab Shack LLC is Jaimie's Crab Shack LLC, and we're either talking about Jaimie's Crab Shack LLC or we're not.  Entities you create with word work similarly.

So you might know yourself as your word, and when your word goes out of integrity, that just means you've lost touch with that entity and need to restore it.  If desired, develop a stronger relationship there, but it's integrity has no reflection on your integrity, because you never had any integrity begin with, and you never will.  You can know yourself as your word and the possibilities you create, but that doesn't make those entities the same as you.  They have integrity, and you can stand in them, but you can never have any integrity yourself.

CDC 6 Day 17

5p - 6:30p

05:30 - 06:30: Obj.2.1c (18.5/25)

Where I left off - Slides Editing

Completed Scrolling to 30-40

Completed Typing to 20-30

LEFT OFF ON Growing, Completed Growing 30, Start by making Growing40

Still need to do Bold.

FRAME INTEGRITY & LANDMARK / AMANDA / ETC

"April 8 - 12 demonstrates that your relationships / sex COME AT THE COST of
frame integrity.  Even though Amanda was in town, you could have chosen
either frame > amanda, BOTH, or amanda > frame.  You said amanda over
frame.  Which is totally fine, and I am happy with that 33%.  This demonstrates
TRUE integrity of the frame."

To this end, I've had to wipe out the Landmark Thursday night NA's... BUT... that doesn't mean landmark is at the cost of the frame.

Instead, I simply have different bedtime integrity on Landmark Thursday's - on these nights, integrity is "IN BED (WITH INTENT TO SLEEP - NO INTIMACY ETC) BY 11:45PM?" - and that's IT - either I am or I am not.

That way, I'm not able to use Landmark as an excuse to be up all night, and I am guarenteed 4.5 hours for a smooth 3 sleep cycles.

And the added benefit is it actually helps my frame integrity out since I always hit this one.

So sometimes wiping out NA's actually ends up as an instant benefit.  Damn, look at that... true integrity is good.

CDC 6 Day 10

5-6p

05:00 - 06:00: Obj.Int.Setup

TRUE INTEGRITY & "N/A"s

Now that I have true commitment, and Landmark's definition of true integrity, it's time to start evaluating things in terms of real integrity.

CDH: "Consistent Discipline Hour": 1 Hr minimum of ROARS work on M-Th and 5 Hr minimum on Sundays.  This applies to every day during the challenge, whether it was a planned day off or not, regardless of emergencies, illness, etc.  There are no reasons.

What about being rational?  Simple - the goal is NOT 100%.  The goal is 70%.  If you have true commitment, then I'm pretty sure your life isn't going to get in the way sooo much that 70% is hard to achieve.

What about vacations?  A whole week just wipes out my integrity??  Sure - simply split up the challenge.  EX: CDC 7.1 & CDC 7.2 during Q3.  Or plan them inbetween challenges.

What about the snowboarding season??  Well, if you're only going for 4 Sundays, set an integrity goal that reflects that, and remember to set aside extra gap room for the Mondays that you're going to be recovering from all the snowboarding.  Frankly, 40% integrity as the goal is OKAY.

INTEGRITY IS NOT ABOUT "GOOD" OR "BAD".  IT IS SIMPLY A MATTER OF SOLIDITY.  IF YOU WANT 40% SOLIDITY, THERE'S NOTHING GOOD OR BAD ABOUT THAT - 40% IS 40% BECAUSE 40% IS 40%.

From here on out, there shall be NO MORE "NA"s in my integrity sheets (Size, CDH, Frame Discipline, etc) unless it's a sheet that specifically is dedicated to my true commitment integrity itself... and even then, those days should be cut from the challenge, not "NA".

This way, when I look at the percentage of CDH achievement over 90 days, I don't have to ask "How many days of the total challenge does the percentage actually apply to, though?"  It will simply be, "Of all business days in the quarter, CDH was achieved the exact percentage it says right there."  No further questions required.  

You look at the whole object of CDH and you get an exact percentage of how solid it really is, no reasoning or baggage to sort through, no audit required, just a clean and simple look at the real integrity of the thing.

Q2 CDC Day 41

9am - 6pm

09:00 - 10:00: Obj.Int.Setup (8/7)
10:00 - 11:00: Day setup and meditation
11:00 - 12:00: Obj.1.2c3 (3/5)
12:00 - 01:00: Obj.Su.Lunch (3/8) [10 min med]
01:00 - 02:00: Obj.1.2c3 (4/5)
02:00 - 02:30: Obj.1.2c3 (4.5/8) [Obj.1.2c3 granted 3 additional hours]
02:30 - 03:00: Break and Meditate [5 min med]
03:00 - 06:00: Obj.1.2c3 (7.5/8) [this is going to take a LONG time]

NOTE: Can use blog post for ROARS Mindfulness, don't need separate pad

NOTE 2: Script AND Product name change: JUST "GUIDE", NOT "VIDEO GUIDE"

Slides

-Need to make sure audio editing completed first right?

 -not necessary...

1. Get to slides

-What needs to be done with audio editing before i even start slides & why?

-Audio is close enough that it is ready for slides.

-This will also help fine tune edits - if i missed a repeating sentence, its caught when i put in the slide
   -Also, this way I dont need to have script open, as slides will show where I am, making all editing easier.

2. Figure out how to do slides

-Color theme to match web
   -will final web be white?
       -go with standard blue and orange theme.  Works and saves time,right?
          -yes.  fuck it.  web theme will adjust to fit the blue and orange theme later

-Working with animoto:
  -slides will NOT match up perfectly, just get them close so they snap in by using the time clock from your main editor
      -this is also 100x faster than trying to "preview" every slide... that would take FOREVER.
           -EVEN LIKE THIS, IT STILL TAKES 2X+ LONGER than the traditional slides method, since these slides are set to the AUDIO, not the script (the can't be edited much once rendered.)

-animoto tricks you into see "white space" that does not exist in storyboard mode.  see preview to clear this one up.

3. Preview & Evaluating how to do them right
-First mistake - this is not a simple copy and paste of the text.  That's BORING.
  -Even if you change the slide style every time, it won't be great.  It'll just be oddly hooking

-Rewatched X video - they are using WAAAY less words.
  -Basically...
     -Only a couple of highlighted words (selling points)
     -Diagrams and very basic images illustrating their idea (explaining with both pictures and words)
     -Thought out "PRESENTATION" of material.
     -Power-point style of .... wait... did you say... power... point..................
        -https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Kr2oEwNsoM
           -Little "Jaimie loses his shit" freakout occurs.
              -Bro, the text effects aren't exactly "standard power point" and it's not like you wouldn't have to make your own pictures anyway.  That'd STILL be the hard part, dummy.  Calm down.

 4. Re-framing: Think of it as a presentation, or a "show" - look at it again using the above (first three points, not the powerpoint shenanigans.)

Put into practice... it takes FOREVER... but GRABS ATTENTION like no other.  AIDA FOR REAL.

Effective Immediately: Frame Integrity & "Showing up on time"

Showed up for morning ritual?

Only gets a "Y" if you are following schedule within 15 minutes (ex. Sunday: wakeup is 7:30 - only pass if on schedule by 7:45.  7:47 is NO GOOD!)

Showed up for workout?

Only gets a "Y" if walking through gym entrance doors BEFORE 3:38pm.

Showed up for all meditations?

Only gets a "Y" if final meditation is started BEFORE 6:08pm.

Showed up for CDH?

Only gets a "Y" if either blog post or meditation is started BEFORE:

-SUNDAY: 9:08am and didn't stop before 2pm.

-M-TH: 5:08pm OR 6:08pm (rule is 5pm unless a switch to 6pm is determined in advance.)

As far as CDH integrity, as long as you work an hour, you get a Y - 100%, no half-credits.  It's pass or fail.  Doesn't matter if you do it midnight to 1 in the morning -- the only consquence of this is that FRAME INTEGRITY takes a hit.

This way, I am switching to a more sensible system.  Instead of doing the confusing "I worked 12 hours, but only get 50% 'integrity' because I showed up 8 minutes late", I am doing the "I worked 12 hours and obviously got the "PASS" on the integrity for 'doing what I said I would do', however I didn't keep to my schedule so a got a "FAIL" on integrity for 'showing up when I said I would'.

Switching from a single, convoluted system, to a checks and balances SET of systems that work together in a way that makes perfect sense and doesn't cause issues.

"DO NOT WANT" Troll is a problem on Sundays

Q1 CDC Day 31

5p - 6:30p

This ski season stuff is killin' me.

So hard to gain traction when Sunday's keep getting knocked out.  The snow is waay too good.

Things to do:

05;15 - 06:15: Obj.RotE1 (1/2)

Breakdown:
5 min setup (atm)
7 min size sheet
3 min meditation post
45 min Real Consequences

Meditation: How to properly do a sentient being meditation

Observe "IT".  In landmark's definition.  Sentient being means see your mind as "IT", being separate from you ("you" being the viewer, in this context.)  And for the duration, watch everything IT does.

"IT'S" ALWAYS doing something.  There is no moment where the vaccuum is a clear state.  SOMETHING always fills it.  You are to observe what IT is doing, what's filling it at all times.

Size Sheet: Frame Integrity Change

So one of the pillars of the CDC's Frame Integrity is tracking your size sheet hour by hour ("Used size sheet hourly?").

But so far, as long as you're only off by a couple of hours or so you feel fine marking "yes" as long as you went back and estimated your size.

This completely defeats the purpose of the integrity tracker.  The point of this tool is to keep you on track, to pull you back to the path every time you get lost.

So from now on, I can ONLY say "yes" to this if I truly tracked hour by hour.  And this means, every hour I MUST meet at least one of the below criteria, or I fail for the day.

-At least 1 mark in Re, 1-up, or 1-up 1-up

-At least 1 measure on size on a 15 min marker

-The hour legitimately qualifies for "NA" (no more than 2 allowed per day, or same story.)  

3+ NA's or A full "NA" day still means "no" to size tracking, regardless of the legitimacy, even if the challenge sheet lists the day's size as "NA".  It doesn't matter if it's due to a late lunch or no lunch or meetings.  

This is due to the fact that the frame integrity is a different mechanism than the other trackers.  It follows a higher standard of rules and is about the strength of the frame... it's not about the context (mental master, aNLP, etc.) or the content (dials, progression, deals worked, etc.)  It's not really asking how well you did today... you can get 100% with a size 3.5 day and not even a full hour of CDH to pass CDH integrity.  Likewise, you can kill it and really progress amazingly in a day and still get a 0% frame integrity analysis.  

The CDC is largely focused on building the frame, and the discipline to build this is going to take sacrifice.