Core Nature of Thoughts Meditation

The key objective is to relate to your thoughts as thoughts (and feelings as feelings, and sensations as sensations, but emphasis of this meditation is obviously the thoughts.)

So not like distinguishing which thoughts are concepts, which are "manufactured", which "take lead / drive the bus", and not whether I should let that happen / fight it / control which thoughts, etc.

CORE NATURE is just relating to thoughts as thoughts because everything else is made up of thoughts and feelings.

Concepts are made up of thoughts and feelings, they aren't the root of the issue.

"Manufactured thoughts", while maybe true or a worthy debate, are a concept, so they are an even more surface level thing - an idea, made up of concepts, which then boils back down to thoughts.

Thoughts that seem to "take control" of my awareness are still thoughts that can be observed - it doesn't necessarily matter if they're driving the bus, it just matters to observe them during the meditation.  They're still just thoughts.  And any "struggle" is just a set of thoughts and feelings related to a these thoughts.  So you can simply observe those, too.

There are no concepts, ideas, or anything that doesn't break down into simply thoughts and feelings.  And since there are only thoughts, the point of the meditation is to get connected with that.  To relate to your thoughts as thoughts.  Because that's what's so.

All the concepts and ideas that the thoughts generate cloud you to the true reality of how you actually are operating in any given moment.  With meditation, you can cut back to the source of it all, and once your observing reality you gain a greater ability to choose which thoughts you follow, and from there you can choose your actions.

CDC 6 Day 36

8:30a - 5:30p

15m Med
09:00 - 10:00: Obj.1.2c (37/40.5)
10:00 - 11:00: Obj.1.2c (38/40.5)
11:00 - 11:30: Break + 5m Med
11:30 - 12:30: Obj.1.2c (39/40.5)
12:30 - 01:30: Obj.1.2c (40/40.5)
01:30 - 02:30: Su.Lunch (6/10)
02:30 - 03:00: Chores
03:00 - 04:00: Obj.1.2c (41/40.5)
04:00 - 05:30: Obj.1.2c (42.5/40.5)


Out sick yesterday, recovering today, want to recover from breakdown and get back on track.  Restore integrity.

To prevent similar breakdowns, I have modified to morning ritual.  NOTE MEDITATION IS NOW REQUIRED AND COMES BEFORE REVIEW PACKET.

NEW Morning Ritual

Discipline Requires for Integrity:

• Be out of bed by 4:35am M-TH / 7:05am SUN
• Have drank water and started shave/hair by 4:40am M-TH
• Have started shower (or long teeth) by 7:10am SUN
• At least 5 minutes of workout M-TH @ gym.
• At least 5 minutes of meditation:
• M-TH - Must be completed by 7:00am
• SU - Must be completed by 8:00am

There is NO ROUNDING: 5:06 & 7:11 are no good.  You are either starting your day with a bang or you are not.

You MUST meet all requirements - including 5 min workout minimum (M-TH) & 5 min meditation (Everyday).

Additional Commitments

No more circle plus on Saturdays for the remainder of Q2 please.

No more Rust prior to lunch on Sundays.

Video 2 Nearing Completion

The video is now 100% filled with slides / video.

The powerpoint slideshow (particularly the first 10-20s of it) needs a little work still.

Still need to do a full watch through and make any last minute tweaks.

But... that's about it.  We're pretty much done. 2-4 hours and it's a wrap.

Choose Your Resistance and EMPOWER Your Meditation

By CHOOSING your resistance (or your "DO NOT WANT"), you go from having it guide you to being at the source of it.

You start by accepting and embracing your very diswanting itself.  Your resistance, your magnetic repulsion, your avoidance.  Get in touch with how much you don't want to meditate.  And choose that.

The repulsion is the way the repulsion is because the repulsion is the way the repulsion is.

AND

I choose the repulsion because I choose the repulsion.

Human beings never accept things for what they are.  We're constantly "deciding" - meaning, the considerations are what's ACTUALLY choosing - and thereby cutting off all other ways of being.

By accepting my repulsion, I can enjoy it and eliminate it as an issue, which then frees me up to meditate without a barrier being in my way.  It therefore empowers my meditation, simply by dis-empowering the racketing.

Meditated tonight with some of my last mintues before bedtime and feel quite good about it.

CDC 6 Day 14

9a - 4:15p

09:00 - 10:00: Obj.2.1c (11/20)
10:00 - 11:00: Obj.2.1c (12/20)
11:00 - 11:30: Break - 5MM
11:30 - 12:30: Obj.2.1c (13/20)
12:30 - 01:30: Obj.2.1c (14/20)
01:30 - 02:30: Obj.Su.Lunch (3/10) - 10MM
02:30 - 03:00: Shopping
03:00 - 04:15: Obj.2.1c (15.25/20)
04:15 - 05:30: Chores
05:30 - 05:45: Meditation
05:45 - 06:30: Erica Training Assembly & Read Mindfulness Book
...rust?
08:00 - 09:00: LARP

Video Editing: Up Next

• WHENEVER THERE IS SILENCE: Record the 1 missing sentence, edit it in.
• Edit all pictures into 1080p slide-ready pix
• Edit first 10 picture slides to FIND OUT IF THEY REQUIRE EXTRA SECONDS DUE TO THE EFFECTS ANIMOTO USES ON THEM!!
• Finish slides.
• Full listen through & edit where needed.
• Add music?

The 5 Second Mindfulness Game

Cultivating "The Moment" once again...

The fun thing about mindfulness that I got last time I was really into it was this ability to know whether I'd been lost in thought or generally aware of my thoughts, and for how long.

It'd be like "op!  I was just gone for 2 minutes on that thought." *then become aware of everything my mind was doing for 30 seconds* ; then be in and out for a couple mins ; then "op!  I was just gone for 10 minutes there"

That was the game, that was how I knew I was heavy into mindfulness.  That could run for several hours and once or twice it ran through pretty much the entire work day.

A new possibility here is that every time I have a "catch" - basically, any time I experience one of those uncommon moments of awareness - maybe count to 5 to experience 5 full seconds of awareness, and then catch the next thought thereafter to keep it going - then play the game of "how long can I keep it going?"  Soon thereafter, you'll get lost in thought again, and once your next moment occurs, mentally note how long you were awake last time, and then count to 5 again and continue the cycle.  

Part of this possibility is that it is forever and unjudging - Just have it be a game you always play, where there's no judging right or wrong, no goal of trying to achieve some kind of thing where you make yourself wrong when you dont do it, etc... it's just "The 5 Second Mindfulness Game"

CDC 6 Day 2

5p - 7p

06:00 - 07:00: Obj.2.1c (3.5/10)

Why 30m Meditation Per Day?

Switching to a "30 min per day" commitment is much more flexible and fitting, allowing me to give it my true commitment.

But why give true commitment - an unreasonable, unforgiving level of dedication - to a seemingly silly exercise?

Meditation & Landmark go hand-in-hand.  Mindfulness, enlightened by the insights of Landmark, allow you to live in the real world and escape your own stories and meaning making mechanisms.  

Now the 2018 goal of 3min-per-hour-average of mindfulness has a purpose - it means I am constantly coming off it and generating the "nothingness" from which I can engage in whatever possibilities I want.

If the power of landmark is nothing, mindfulness is the tool that allows you to generate that power.  It puts the power of landmark in your hands over and over again every day.  From there, you can actually achieve things like your "deal-work goals", once the possibility / "how" is figured out.

It's also worth noting that in the past, I was so inconsistent with mindfulness it literally was a waste of time.  Looking at the 10 weeks of Q1, counting for NAs, I actually averaged 15.5% frame integrity on my meditations.  15%!!!  At that rate, mental mastery is a hopeless pipe dream of despair.

Now that I'm truely committed - and expect to see #'s in the 90's - I can resume the path of mental mastery.  When you work out daily, you BUILD muscle - when you meditate daily, you BUILD your mind.  

Why 30m meditation per day?  Because the most important thing I can build is my mind, and mediation is a sure fire way of doing it.

Q4 CDC Day 42

5:00p - 7:15p

5-515 - meditation
515-530 - setup

05:30 - 06:00: Obj.Int.Setup (10.5/6)
06:00 - 07:00: Obj.2.1a (18.5/5)

SETUP EXTENDED -- To forever settle what "IT" is that you must "GET"

From now on, thou shalt live by the following realization.

If thou deviates, thou shalt review the following:

Q1 CDC Day 31

5p - 6:30p

This ski season stuff is killin' me.

So hard to gain traction when Sunday's keep getting knocked out.  The snow is waay too good.

Things to do:

05;15 - 06:15: Obj.RotE1 (1/2)

Breakdown:
5 min setup (atm)
7 min size sheet
3 min meditation post
45 min Real Consequences

Meditation: How to properly do a sentient being meditation

Observe "IT".  In landmark's definition.  Sentient being means see your mind as "IT", being separate from you ("you" being the viewer, in this context.)  And for the duration, watch everything IT does.

"IT'S" ALWAYS doing something.  There is no moment where the vaccuum is a clear state.  SOMETHING always fills it.  You are to observe what IT is doing, what's filling it at all times.

Size Sheet: Frame Integrity Change

So one of the pillars of the CDC's Frame Integrity is tracking your size sheet hour by hour ("Used size sheet hourly?").

But so far, as long as you're only off by a couple of hours or so you feel fine marking "yes" as long as you went back and estimated your size.

This completely defeats the purpose of the integrity tracker.  The point of this tool is to keep you on track, to pull you back to the path every time you get lost.

So from now on, I can ONLY say "yes" to this if I truly tracked hour by hour.  And this means, every hour I MUST meet at least one of the below criteria, or I fail for the day.

-At least 1 mark in Re, 1-up, or 1-up 1-up

-At least 1 measure on size on a 15 min marker

-The hour legitimately qualifies for "NA" (no more than 2 allowed per day, or same story.)  

3+ NA's or A full "NA" day still means "no" to size tracking, regardless of the legitimacy, even if the challenge sheet lists the day's size as "NA".  It doesn't matter if it's due to a late lunch or no lunch or meetings.  

This is due to the fact that the frame integrity is a different mechanism than the other trackers.  It follows a higher standard of rules and is about the strength of the frame... it's not about the context (mental master, aNLP, etc.) or the content (dials, progression, deals worked, etc.)  It's not really asking how well you did today... you can get 100% with a size 3.5 day and not even a full hour of CDH to pass CDH integrity.  Likewise, you can kill it and really progress amazingly in a day and still get a 0% frame integrity analysis.  

The CDC is largely focused on building the frame, and the discipline to build this is going to take sacrifice.