Q4 CDC Day 42

5:00p - 7:15p

5-515 - meditation
515-530 - setup

05:30 - 06:00: Obj.Int.Setup (10.5/6)
06:00 - 07:00: Obj.2.1a (18.5/5)

SETUP EXTENDED -- To forever settle what "IT" is that you must "GET"

From now on, thou shalt live by the following realization.

If thou deviates, thou shalt review the following:

How to Enjoy Pain

New technique: Child-like amusement - enjoy your petty emotions JUST TO enjoy them.

NLP - This is the lateral / sideways directional move.  "It's not this, it's THAT."

To become an adult, you have to learn that it's not good to be angry at silly things, and we become more mature by not reacting to our emotions.  

The problem is that the strategy is largely via suppression, meaning that we're mostly just hiding our anger from others, or judging ourselves for it and pushing it down or away.

The key to enjoying the anger and embracing it is much like the way a child would.  Imagine a child who's mad at something silly and then after he's forgotten about why he's mad, he just remains mad because he enjoys being mad.  Kind of like Louis CK's example of Jizanthapus - pure anger just for the sake of it.

So when pittiful, pathetic, embracing base emotions pop up at tiny things, the key isn't to act like an adult, it's to act like a controlled child.  You enjoy these ridiculous feelings SELFISHLY, when they come up instead of being like "why the HELL would that emotion have such power here when it's so childish" you want to be like "Yeah, FUCK that guy for slightly bumping my shoulder".

In this way, when a silly completely uncalled for emotion comes up, you relish it like a child would, enjoying it just to enjoy it like an immature curiousity you can't stop yourself from exploring.

Keep in mind, this is just one technique.  There's still other 2 good ones:

-NLP: Up/Future direction: Thinking of a time you enjoyed pain and what that was like, and how things play out differently enjoying vs. hating (crazy bad is crazy good.)

-NLP: Analogical direction: Comparing feeling pain to working out pain of pushing and stretching - it's a good pain, not a bad pain.

Justification Trolls - Eric's Brain vs. Mine, ROARS affecting LEAF calls, Guilt trolls, ...

TROLL: Eric's Brain vs. Mine:

This troll basically says, Eric has it easier than I do because he's not as clouded with thoughts / I have an over-thinking problem / ETC.

Thinking about it this way serves me by making me not worry so much about my performance, and is a stress reliever, it excuses me from my guilt.

There's layers of problems here.  One being a GUILT troll.

• TROLL: GUILT:Why feel guilty and self hatred, vs. simply embracing that feeling as an exhilarating push forward?
  
  Being controlled by guilt is just stupid.  It's like anxiety -- simply mis-used energy.
  
  REPROGRAM: Guilt should always be a sign that I'm standing in front of a wall that I need to push through. Hating yourself because of a percieved, repeating behavior?  Well then "DONT LET THAT HAPPEN" (do the opposite behavior instead, right???  Why are you resigned??)

REPROGRAM (Eric's Brain vs. Mine):

Isn't this BLAMING & FOCUSING ON THE CATCH?  Wouldn't it be better to focus on a 1-up here and focus on "stone building" as you put it?

What, exactly, makes you feel this way, and what's one way you can think less / move on / etc to be more like Eric?

Why not think of one way you can make your brain more like how you want it to be instead of thinking about why you're a failure?

....

ROARS affecting LEAF calls:

This troll says "I'm working 60 hours a week, so that's why I can chill out a little on my call stats."

It's the EXACT OPPOSITE of everything you're trying to build and has "mass affect" of negative, mixed messaging that's screwing up all the neural pathways I'm trying to build.


REPROGRAM:

If it's all about ENJOYING pain and being excited when it happens...

...then the MORE you work and the MORE INTENSE you are the ENTIRE TIME, the MORE YOU HAVE TO ENJOY.

I'm not crazy -- I know you're not Cobey -- and Eric acknowledges that more hours is often WORSE.

But just because you're not a 6-7 yet doesn't mean things wouldn't be MORE ENJOYABLE if you got there.

On the contrary, as a 6-7 things would be so easy and more enjoyable that to even continue as a 6-7 you'd have to be making at least 80-100 calls a day while working many deals and working on ROARS for hours once you got home.

Making 70 calls and only working a few deals simply isn't enough work to maintain that level of size.  The size is a result of overcoming obstacles, without obstacles, there's no size... like effort, size is a comparison of two things.