Want X Troll

This troll has started to become very dominant.

Reprogram: Want X says "I'm not into [OBJ]" without ever saying it.

It is "I'd rather do X" and this means that you end up LOWERING THE VALUE of the thing that you really want.

Do what you REALLY want, not what you want right now.  Break down the troll into it's parts.

Ex: I want soda -> I crave sugar and sweet vs. I crave pushing deeper into the task at hand.

Sugar & Sweet - enjoyable for a moment but distracting, will have to wash hands, spin my wheels for 5 minutes and end up too small to face challenges, will end up not really enjoying anything.

Pushing deeper into task - painful for a moment but quickly will become more enjoyable, ramp me up, make me feel exhilarated and enjoying everything.

On Sundays, the same often goes for Rust.  You could get on and it'll be fun for a second but kind of painful too and you wont be able to really enjoy anything.  You'll get moody, depressed, irrational, crazy, unskilled and when you die, angry, frustrated, and confused.

Getting into your work will not be fun for a second, but kind of satisfying too, and you'll start enjoying it along with everything else in your day.  You'll get solid and clarity, exhilerated, satisfied, rational and confident, skilled and when you progress, fulfilled, proud, comfortable, and clear.

From October 9, 2016:

"Want now" vs. "What I really want"

You can keep letting your mind ("IT") drive you around and lie to you.  You can let those imaginary squeezes and stretches in your chest make you feel like you need to do other things.  You can give in to these feelings and react to them

You will, of course, end up unhappy, defeated, not enjoying whatever it is they tell you to do, conflicted for the rest of the day, struggling, falling behind, hating life, feeling like you're getting no where... etc.

OR...

You can simply realize that the feelings are all made up.  Theres nothing going on stronger than the equivalent of you making a fist.  None of it's real and it'll be gone within seconds, at most a few minutes, of your thinking about it.

You can then push forth, embrace the pain and discipline, and grow fast back into a person who can work through great difficulties to achieve great things.

Because it's when you're tested that you have the REAL opportunities to achieve happiness.

When it's easy, you're not actually growing.  The tough spots are the real opportunities.

And of course, you will create happiness, deep pride and satisfaction with yourself, victorious, enjoying your work a lot more, getting ahead, and loving life.

YOU CAN DO IT EITHER WAY AND SINCE ALL YOU'RE REALLY DOING IS SITTING IN A CHAIR AND THINKING IT'S REALLY NOT ANY HARDER ONE WAY OR THE OTHER.

Are you going to choose the good way or the bad way?  Do you like creating good feelings or bad feelings?

Get serious, get focused, and make it happen.  You cannot let IT eat you alive.  You must fight, and NOW is the time to do so.