End of Challenge Trolls

This is another set of trolls needing to be re-wired.

I failed the final Sunday.  In the moment, I felt as if I had a choice and really did not want so I did not choose.

I didn't have a choice, and the fact that I forgot this shows a deeper, genuine failure rooted in my subconscious.

There's a lot of talk about how going easy at the end is helpful:

• Makes the stats less difficult to beat since it lowers the averages, so I'll do better next time.
• Most of the challenge is already locked in so the averages won't change much anyways.
• Good job, you got to the end!

These trolls don't just threaten me in the last week -- they threaten my start to the next challenge, and, by not reprogramming theses NEURAL PATHWAYS now while it's still the end of the challenge, it almost guarentees they will come back causing more failure of word and integrity at the end of the next challenge.

Here's the truth and the reprogram -- REWIRE THIS NEURAL PATHWAY AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE THIS WEEK WHILE YOU STILL CAN!!

• Makes me smaller and makes my averages smaller than they should be, so there's less of a challenge to rise to next time, helping me stay small over the long term, preventing the goals I am trying to achieve.  This is why fast progress doesn't happen for me.
• De-values the challenge and the averages so they don't matter at the start of the next challenge.
• You need to push through to that finish line as fast as possible to grow as much as possible.

THIS GOES AGAINST LITERALLY EVERYTHING THAT I AM TRYING TO DO.  IT'S SAYING THAT SINCE YOU'RE NEAR THE END, YOU NO LONGER NEED TO EMBRACE PAIN AND SUFFERING.  IT'S SAYING RAMPING DOWN MAKES SENSE.  IT'S SAYING BEING SMALL IS GOOD AND RELAXING.  IT'S SAYING ALL STRESS IS DISTRESS.  

IT IS AN INSANE TROLL THAT COMES UP SUBCONSCIOUSLY AND AUTOMATICALLY AT THE END OF EVERY CHALLENGE ALL THE TIME, EVEN THOUGH IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ERADICATED 5 YEARS AGO.  REPROGRAM A STRONG FINISH INTO YOUR BRAIN -- YOU CLEARLY NEVER LEARNED WHY A STRONG FINISH IS IMPORTANT, SO FIGURE THAT OUT!!!!!!!

What are the reasons for a strong finish?  What does it do for you?

Q2 PTC Day 79

5:30 - 7:30 (I know... had to finish converting to ops system or I was gonna have deals slipping through the cracks.)

LEAF AFTER LEAF DAY

LEAF AFTER LEAF PRIORITIES LIST:

1. THE HAUS
2. OPPORTUNITIES SUPER SYSTEM SETUP
3. LAST ACTIVITY BLASTING AND DE-DNCING

Q2 PTC Day 78

6-7p problem solving.

Nearing the end here now yall.

Since it is too hot to turn off the AC to record audio, I decided to start working on the webpage and getting the website back online.

Help on "Error Establishing Database"
http://www.wpbeginner.com/wp-tutorials/how-to-fix-the-error-establishing-a-database-connection-in-wordpress/

Also, how I setup my database:
http://entrepreneurisback.blogspot.com/2015/10/day-28.html

Checked:
ALL WP SITES ARE DOWN -- so it's a database problem, not a single site permission or username / pass setup.

BOTH SITE AND WP-ADMIN ARE DOWN -- again, database at large problem, not some corruption.

THE URL AND THE IP BOTH SHOW THE SAME PROBLEM -- it's not a domain name problem.

Let's look at the facts: I haven't used the site in 6 months.

MOST LIKELY IT'S AN AWS PROBLEM.

It COULD be the wordpress unique key is broken, but probably not.  Updating wordpress is always optional, for the most part.  And some of my sites dont have shit for plugins so that not it.

MOST LIKELY:
1. The aws security key is out-dated or not working or the "key-pair" isn't working (likely).
2. I setup a db with aws that I forgot about and is not running (unlikely).
3. Some other aws connectivity problem (IP inactive, some routing thing, etc)

Attacking to Uselessly Prepare Troll

"If Eric says why do I waste time meditating, I would say..."

The whole thing is a waste of mental energy -- why fight this battle over and over to toughen up over a non-issue?  LOL

Q2 PTC Days 70 - 73

Sunday, June 12 -- Day 70 -- about 6 hours of LEAF work.

Monday & Tuesday - FAILURE!!

Wednesday, June 15 - Day 73 -- 5:30p - 7p @ LEAF.

Q2 PTC Day 66 & 67

LEAF work days

Q2 PTC Day 65

6p - 7p

Got the final draft of the prequel video done!

Time to start reading it into the mic next :)

Q2 PTC Day 64

6p - 7:15p: "Power Hour" Review.  Had to set myself back on the path of consistency, discipline, mental mastery, playing the intensity game, and replacing trolls.

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Well... first "Sunday" failure in 10 weeks yesterday (last weekend I skipped Sunday but worked Memorial Day, so didn't have the full day off failure) due primarily to smoking weed.

It's time for a commitment here.

I HEREBY GIVE MY WORD THAT I WILL NOT SMOKE WEED FOR THE REMAINDER OF THE 2016 Q2 PTC.

Almost dumb that I even have to give my word, yet it is done.

Q3 going to say word should not be required.  I know better!!  Weed has disastrous consequences to my life even in a small capacity.  It cannot be frequently used as a stress reliever even.  It's a rare exception ONLY.  The consequences far outweigh the benefits.  There's not much more to be said.  I learned the very hard way a long time ago.

How can you be a in a challenge to become a POWER THINKER and smoke weed?  Weed weakens the mind.  It makes me into a LAZY THINKER at best and turns my brain into a mucky mess at worst.  It is the EXACT OPPOSITE of embracing pain and being a warrior.

A POWER THINKER does everything he can to keep thinking powerfully.  He keeps his programming, thoughts, feelings in check so his actions are powerful.  He re-trains weakness into power through the opportunities of stone building and troll replacing.  He seeks out pain just to push himself through it, embracing pain and suffering, making him feel strong AF by enduring it, growing him to greater levels.  He masters his mind through an extraordinary awareness of his thoughts, feelings, and actions.

Q2 PTC Day 60

6p-7:15p.  I know.
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*Yawn*

So... fucking... tired.

Seriously.  Getting squeezed at work harder than ever to hit stats & goals and then working, what, 12-13 hours now on ROARS on top of at least a 10 hours of LEAF a day... damn... and that's standard now... funny I remember many years ago working a 60 hour week ONE time on ROARS and thinking I could do anything, even though my work ethic was laughable... and now working more than that with double or even triple (if not more) the work ethic is standard.

It is amazing what you can do.

SO, slides today, is it?  Guess I have no choice.  I've already chosen.  Would I really want the other way anyways?  Probably not, I guess.  Time to jump in again.

Deep down, I do feel deeply satisfied :).

So there's that.
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I HAVE A LOT OF RE-RECORDING TO DO.  FUCK.

Dave's right... the beginning is WAAY too down-tempo.. it's really good that I shared it with him.  Jesus fuck.

On the other hand, there's a lot of tone nicities improvements, and those are very important too.  I just went too far with the down-tempo-ness of it all.  Hence, the walker on insomnia bit.

And when you think about Mr. Tom Jones, he DEFINITELY is UP-TEMPO.  If you're having a problem expressing a full range of emotion it's because you aren't going up tempo enough to create the right contrast.

So, in conclusion, basically, I HAVE to re-record it.  Which sucks balls, but (and I can't believe I have to say this AGAIN) it will definitely be worth it.

Slides

The slides will need to be redone, but:

1. Found them

2. Gimp is now installed and works

3. Almost done with finishing the text version of the video and from there it's mostly copy and paste.  The slides and editing them in ETA of about 2 hours.

After, of course... the re-record.  fml.  At least I'll have a legit dampener this time I guess.

Q2 PTC Day 59

6p-7p Editing done (except for the final ending... which I am thinking should end "....put in your email, and I'll see you in a minute!)

NEXT UP: 
START WORK ON SLIDES.  

GET THE VISUALS IN THERE, AND BEEFCAKE THEM OUT.   NEEDS TO BE A.I.D.A. YOUTUBE STYLE, FIRST VISUAL GETS 2 SECONDS TO GRAB THEM AND IT NEEDS TO STAY INTERESTING A.F. AFTER THAT (and think desire / decision at the end with some beauty sleep and energetic youth pictures.)

No reason to worry about recording the last 3 seconds tomorrow.  I got a foam sound dampener on it's way so I can record quality without spending 5 minutes at a time setting up a bunch of blankets and shit.