6:30p - 7:30p
06:30 - 07:30: Obj.Init.Setup (6/7)
Reviewed packet further.
Happiness is for you to go out and MAKE HAPPEN.
Happiness is not going to come on it's own. It'll wait and hold back FOREVER.
So if I want it, I gotta go get it. I need to fight for it again.
And through persistent determination, I can make it happen.
Tuesday, October 31, 2017
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
Q4 CDC Day 15
06:00 - 07:30: Obj.2.1a (11.5/10)
Script rough draft finally complete!!
Wed & Thurs, edit into a final draft, so you can be good to go for Sunday... fuck... right... funeral... well... for next week.
Script rough draft finally complete!!
Wed & Thurs, edit into a final draft, so you can be good to go for Sunday... fuck... right... funeral... well... for next week.
Monday, October 16, 2017
Monday, October 9, 2017
Sunday, October 8, 2017
Q4 CDC Day 6
12:00 - 01:00: Obj.Int.Setup (3/4)
01:00 - 02:00: Obj.Su.Lunch (4/14)
02:00 - 03:00: Obj.Int.Setup (4/4)
03:00 - 03:30: Break (reading packet)
04:30 - 05:30: Obj.2.1a (4/5)
05:30 - 06:30: Obj.2.1a (5/5)
My closest friend has died.
She may have not been my "best" friend, but she was my closest.
Sarah Abbottsmith will live on in my heart forever. It's been a crushing loss that has taken days to come to terms with.
Obviously, this blew a hole in RRW, however RRW still works out, and the hours goal regains unchanged as long as I am willing to step up to the challenge.
I worked enough to get 20 hours in, set up a new challenge, a new improved sound studio and office, new video quality rendering was figured out, and most importantly, I finally finished the first video.
Now I'm on path to finish the second video, wrap up the website, polish the product, and start making money.
Sarah did this because she wanted it for both herself and me. The last thing I told her before she hung up on me was that I didn't want our relationship to be one of those unhealthy ones where she never learns to support herself and I dedicate my life to supporting her, and that essentially she needed to make the decision to support herself and her own happiness.
I meant that she needed to stay in school so she won't drop into a depression in which I am her only beacon of light, and that if she did make herself depressed by dropping out, it would be wrong of me to support that, because I'd be making it okay for her to severely cripple herself.
She dropped out anyways, and then I know what happened, based on what she's told me in the past I have an insight into her exact thoughts. They were along these lines: "I am costing my mom money that I can't pay back, I am using Abe, and I can't reach out to Jaimie because I will be ruining his life by making him waste all his time and energy on me and he really doesn't deserve that. I am a negative force and I just want what's best for everyone, which is a world without me in it."
I have long texts to Abe about her illness and her lack of hope and how nothingness is better than an existence of suffering and how I agree with her choice since there was no hope for her. She wanted to die for most of her adult life. She was depressed for most of her life. She was in and out of hospitals and it was a miserable existence. For her, suicide was a good thing, it was what she wanted and better than what she had. So my goal moving forward is to represent her, to stand up for what she believed, to let everyone know she made the right choice and there's at least one person out there who understood that, understood her, and represented her choices and who she was even after she was gone. Of all those who care the most for her, I may be the only one who really gets her. And that makes me happy.
So to represent her on RotE, it's fitting that I finally tell her "you're right, and I will back you on this" when it comes to the "Jaimie is wasting his time and energy on me" part. To Sarah: "Thank you. You know I wish you hadn't done it, you know how much I love you... but thank you for freeing me from you. I think you over-estimated your negative impact on me, and that is my fault for not being more clear, but you had good intentions and I'm glad I could help to free you from your suffering. Since you have left us, I will honor you by continuing my work and I will dedicate it to you. You made the ultimate sacrifice for all of us, even if it was for your own selfish reasons, I can recognize this as a best case scenario for you and me, and I will use that. The worst thing I can do is let your choice go to waste by mourning you for any longer than I have to and forgetting you. Instead I will move forward, full steam ahead, in your honor and I will dedicate the cure for insomnia series to you."
After the cover and title page, there will be a dedication, book style:
"Dedicated to Sarah, the love of my life who died young, and all who suffer from mental illness like she did.
Please don't watch this course passively - commit to trying everything, to improving your sleep, and to improving your health... because I want to help you as much as possible, and I need your commitment to do it."
01:00 - 02:00: Obj.Su.Lunch (4/14)
02:00 - 03:00: Obj.Int.Setup (4/4)
03:00 - 03:30: Break (reading packet)
04:30 - 05:30: Obj.2.1a (4/5)
05:30 - 06:30: Obj.2.1a (5/5)
I will not waste the freedom Sarah has given to me
My closest friend has died.
She may have not been my "best" friend, but she was my closest.
Sarah Abbottsmith will live on in my heart forever. It's been a crushing loss that has taken days to come to terms with.
Obviously, this blew a hole in RRW, however RRW still works out, and the hours goal regains unchanged as long as I am willing to step up to the challenge.
I worked enough to get 20 hours in, set up a new challenge, a new improved sound studio and office, new video quality rendering was figured out, and most importantly, I finally finished the first video.
Now I'm on path to finish the second video, wrap up the website, polish the product, and start making money.
Sarah did this because she wanted it for both herself and me. The last thing I told her before she hung up on me was that I didn't want our relationship to be one of those unhealthy ones where she never learns to support herself and I dedicate my life to supporting her, and that essentially she needed to make the decision to support herself and her own happiness.
I meant that she needed to stay in school so she won't drop into a depression in which I am her only beacon of light, and that if she did make herself depressed by dropping out, it would be wrong of me to support that, because I'd be making it okay for her to severely cripple herself.
She dropped out anyways, and then I know what happened, based on what she's told me in the past I have an insight into her exact thoughts. They were along these lines: "I am costing my mom money that I can't pay back, I am using Abe, and I can't reach out to Jaimie because I will be ruining his life by making him waste all his time and energy on me and he really doesn't deserve that. I am a negative force and I just want what's best for everyone, which is a world without me in it."
I have long texts to Abe about her illness and her lack of hope and how nothingness is better than an existence of suffering and how I agree with her choice since there was no hope for her. She wanted to die for most of her adult life. She was depressed for most of her life. She was in and out of hospitals and it was a miserable existence. For her, suicide was a good thing, it was what she wanted and better than what she had. So my goal moving forward is to represent her, to stand up for what she believed, to let everyone know she made the right choice and there's at least one person out there who understood that, understood her, and represented her choices and who she was even after she was gone. Of all those who care the most for her, I may be the only one who really gets her. And that makes me happy.
So to represent her on RotE, it's fitting that I finally tell her "you're right, and I will back you on this" when it comes to the "Jaimie is wasting his time and energy on me" part. To Sarah: "Thank you. You know I wish you hadn't done it, you know how much I love you... but thank you for freeing me from you. I think you over-estimated your negative impact on me, and that is my fault for not being more clear, but you had good intentions and I'm glad I could help to free you from your suffering. Since you have left us, I will honor you by continuing my work and I will dedicate it to you. You made the ultimate sacrifice for all of us, even if it was for your own selfish reasons, I can recognize this as a best case scenario for you and me, and I will use that. The worst thing I can do is let your choice go to waste by mourning you for any longer than I have to and forgetting you. Instead I will move forward, full steam ahead, in your honor and I will dedicate the cure for insomnia series to you."
After the cover and title page, there will be a dedication, book style:
"Dedicated to Sarah, the love of my life who died young, and all who suffer from mental illness like she did.
Please don't watch this course passively - commit to trying everything, to improving your sleep, and to improving your health... because I want to help you as much as possible, and I need your commitment to do it."
Thursday, October 5, 2017
Q4 CDC Day 3
08:30 - 09:30: Obj.1.2e (1/1)
09:30 - 11:00: LEAF Catchup
11:00 - 12:00: Obj.Su.Lunch (3/15)
12:00 - 01:30: Helping mom and extended lunch.
01:30 - 02:30: Obj.2.1a (1/4)
02:30 - 03:30: Obj.2.1a (2/4)
03:30 - 04:30: Obj.2.1a (3/4)
@ 04:47 I received the news that Sarah had died and RRW came to an immediate end.
This is where the web experience comes in, IMO. Once I have v2 done, I'll be able to put it all into a coherent Web presentation, and from there I can get a sense of the easiest way to transition. Probably some kind of black top to frame the video, with a second section below it leading off with "how insomnia actually works", some value diagrams that transition into a stronger sale.
09:30 - 11:00: LEAF Catchup
11:00 - 12:00: Obj.Su.Lunch (3/15)
12:00 - 01:30: Helping mom and extended lunch.
01:30 - 02:30: Obj.2.1a (1/4)
02:30 - 03:30: Obj.2.1a (2/4)
03:30 - 04:30: Obj.2.1a (3/4)
@ 04:47 I received the news that Sarah had died and RRW came to an immediate end.
Video 1 is done... Now what?
So the objectives and goals indicate that the next steps are to flesh out the rest of the 1st stage of the website, then move on to video 2.
There's probably good reasons for this. It means moving forward linearly with the full experience. However, I think it might be better to move on directly to video 2.
The second video and the content leads the way for how everything will progress. Website is really just the layer that facilitates the transition from video to video. The videos are the core.
I can outline this pretty easily.
Video 1 -> opt in -> video 2 ("part 2" of video 1)
Video 2 sells video 3 ("How Insomnia Actually Works") ideally by teaching the essential ideas without explaining any implementation. -> Sales video for video 3 + CIS.
The question in the v2->v3 stage is in the how to. Is there a sales letter right below the video? Quick buy button? Learn more link?
Ideally, they should seemlessly get to buy right at the end of v2, without clicking any links to continue.
This is where the web experience comes in, IMO. Once I have v2 done, I'll be able to put it all into a coherent Web presentation, and from there I can get a sense of the easiest way to transition. Probably some kind of black top to frame the video, with a second section below it leading off with "how insomnia actually works", some value diagrams that transition into a stronger sale.
And that's where I need to establish everything to get a good sense of what I'm doing.
So moving forward, I'll complete video 2, and from there I'll go on to all the web objectives before moving on to videos 3, 4, and 5 (which should all be knocked out at once.)
I don't imagine that I will re-make mastery at this time.
Wednesday, October 4, 2017
Q4 CDC Day 2
08:30 - 09:30: Obj.1.2d4 (6/10)
10:00 - 11:00: Obj.1.2d4 (7/10)
11:30 - 12:00: Obj.Su.Lunch (2/15)
12:30 - 01:30: Obj.1.2d4 (8/10)
01:30 - 02:30: Obj.1.2d4 (9/10)
02:30 - 03:00: Break
03:00 - 04:00: Obj.1.2d4 (10/10)
04:00 - 05:00: Obj.1.2d4 (11/10)
10:00 - 11:00: Obj.1.2d4 (7/10)
11:30 - 12:00: Obj.Su.Lunch (2/15)
12:30 - 01:30: Obj.1.2d4 (8/10)
01:30 - 02:30: Obj.1.2d4 (9/10)
02:30 - 03:00: Break
03:00 - 04:00: Obj.1.2d4 (10/10)
04:00 - 05:00: Obj.1.2d4 (11/10)
Tuesday, October 3, 2017
Q4 CDC Begins - Day 1
08:30 - 09:30: Obj.Int.Setup (1/2)
09:30 - 10:30: Obj.Int.Setup (2/2)
10:30 - 11:30: Obj.Su.Lunch (1/15)
11:30 - 12:30: Obj.1.2d4 (1/10)
12:30 - 01:30: Obj.1.2d4 (2/10)
01:30 - 02:00: Break
02:00 - 03:00: Obj.1.2d4 (3/10)
03:00 - 04:00: Obj.1.2d4 (4/10)
04:00 - 05:00: Break
05:00 - 06:00: Obj.1.2d4 (5/10)
The objective is clear: Launch the website.
There is about 130-150 hours remaining - with RRW, I can hit that goal with an average of only 9 hours per week. I will need to average 9, but it can be done.
The "REAL CONSEQUENCES" factors in like so...
I figure this move and taking care of my stroke victim family has cost me about 2 months in ROARS time, essentially 1 whole challenge, factoring in for the prolonged production of video 1. That means I'm 1-2 quarters behind.
Real consequences would typically say "you'd never get there", but it was afraid of my aging parents, and the possibility I would need to take care of them. However, this fear is gone for 2 reasons:
1. I've already gone through that this year, and seen that this will not take up too much of my time now that we're all moved in. My dad takes care of my mom, and that frees most of my time.
2. My income has sky rocketed and I can afford to take care of them. They are safe under my wing thanks to excelling at LEAF.
So, with that main fear alleviated, I figure I have another 6 months - 1 year into the timeline.
Here's the modified version:
Goals for 2017:
230 hours total, launch website
Q1: 24.5
Q2: 53
Q3: 25 (due to move / parents care)
Q4: 130 (with RRW)
Launch by end of year.
First $1 made in Q1-Q2 2018
Goals for 2018:
500 hours total, surpass $500 per month
Q1: 70 hours (ski season... figuring 4 weeks off of 11, avg 10/wk), make first $1
Q2: 120 hours, make second sale
Q3: 135 hours, get to $300-600 revenue ($100-500 per month)
Q4 get to $500 - $1000 revenue, with one month being over $500
Goals for 2019:
800 hours total.
Q1 get to $1,500+ revenue
Q2 get to $2,500+ revenue
Q3 get to $4,000+ revenue
Q4 get to $6,000+ revenue
2019 thereby will be putting me on track to end up financially free by the end of 2020.
Note that for this to work, I am planning 4 total ski trips in Q1. I understand any ski trip (other than maybe a quick Saturday bear trip) makes it too difficult to achieve my goals during the week, which is why I am planning it as a 7 weeks-of-work quarter.
09:30 - 10:30: Obj.Int.Setup (2/2)
10:30 - 11:30: Obj.Su.Lunch (1/15)
11:30 - 12:30: Obj.1.2d4 (1/10)
12:30 - 01:30: Obj.1.2d4 (2/10)
01:30 - 02:00: Break
02:00 - 03:00: Obj.1.2d4 (3/10)
03:00 - 04:00: Obj.1.2d4 (4/10)
04:00 - 05:00: Break
05:00 - 06:00: Obj.1.2d4 (5/10)
Primary Objective of Q4 2017
The objective is clear: Launch the website.
There is about 130-150 hours remaining - with RRW, I can hit that goal with an average of only 9 hours per week. I will need to average 9, but it can be done.
The "REAL CONSEQUENCES" factors in like so...
I figure this move and taking care of my stroke victim family has cost me about 2 months in ROARS time, essentially 1 whole challenge, factoring in for the prolonged production of video 1. That means I'm 1-2 quarters behind.
Real consequences would typically say "you'd never get there", but it was afraid of my aging parents, and the possibility I would need to take care of them. However, this fear is gone for 2 reasons:
1. I've already gone through that this year, and seen that this will not take up too much of my time now that we're all moved in. My dad takes care of my mom, and that frees most of my time.
2. My income has sky rocketed and I can afford to take care of them. They are safe under my wing thanks to excelling at LEAF.
So, with that main fear alleviated, I figure I have another 6 months - 1 year into the timeline.
Here's the modified version:
Goals for 2017:
230 hours total, launch website
Q1: 24.5
Q2: 53
Q3: 25 (due to move / parents care)
Q4: 130 (with RRW)
Launch by end of year.
First $1 made in Q1-Q2 2018
Goals for 2018:
500 hours total, surpass $500 per month
Q1: 70 hours (ski season... figuring 4 weeks off of 11, avg 10/wk), make first $1
Q2: 120 hours, make second sale
Q3: 135 hours, get to $300-600 revenue ($100-500 per month)
Q4 get to $500 - $1000 revenue, with one month being over $500
Goals for 2019:
800 hours total.
Q1 get to $1,500+ revenue
Q2 get to $2,500+ revenue
Q3 get to $4,000+ revenue
Q4 get to $6,000+ revenue
2019 thereby will be putting me on track to end up financially free by the end of 2020.
Note that for this to work, I am planning 4 total ski trips in Q1. I understand any ski trip (other than maybe a quick Saturday bear trip) makes it too difficult to achieve my goals during the week, which is why I am planning it as a 7 weeks-of-work quarter.
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